Initiation

Hello everyone,
or just you the lone reader, don't know how many or how few will read this so I will speak to the individual. What the hell is a blog? I feel pretentious writing one because I have never read one. So I'll just use the space a a therapeutic rant space. My name is Riley, I know typical geek name. It appears to have been destined for me to be a geek. I go by the handle of Darkwoulfe. I'll explain that one later because right now, I can't think of any way of explaining it without sounding like I need meds. Darkwoulfe seems geeky also, but in a cool geeky way. It fits me, I think.

First let's get into the geek thing, I mean it is in the title I should address it. I'm a geek because I don't fit in, never have, apparently never will. Could be I just will have never have mass appeal. That's cool though, cause I pretty much hate people. Not everyone just the masses who are too lazy to even engage their 3 brain cells to accept or analyze anything out of the norm. Lets call them the "Normals." Here's a bit I've learned about the normals to pass on to geeks/nerds everywhere especially the undercover pretenders(those trying so desperately to fit in they have it tied to their self esteem and emotional well being): They are dangerous, THEY WILL NEVER ACCEPT YOU, F* THEM,if you try to pretend to be one of them and they find you out they will always sacrifice you to their gods of normalcy. They cannot fathom why your are different and the thinking about it hurts their heads, in some cases they will kill you for it.

Most likely, if you are like I was when I was a teen, they'll drive you to kill yourself. Luckily I'm still here, yay. The pressure was great but I came all hard, crisp and crusty, like a well cooked snoot. Now when I find normals trying to pressure a nerd in to being like them or giving them trouble about being themselves, I go ballistic, but not as bad as when I find nerd pretenders. More F* words and MotherF* words fly than fly's on sh* when I find them. Don't comply no matter what. Do what you gotta do and no more. It's more healthy to be yourself than trying to be someone else's ideal. Life is way too short for you not to enjoy yourself as God intended you to be, plus he won't be pleased if you squander the gift of geekiness.

The Black part, yeah it's in the title and it too defines who I am. A Black man in America, whew, it's toughest of the two and I ain't even got it that bad. The worse thing about being Black the more I try to get a handle on it the deeper and more complex it gets. It's probably because being black puts me in an artificial second-class citizen category, one that I am only familiar with in American culture. Though there are many writings and proof of it's existence no definitive evidence on how to overcome it sidestep it. There are many well known writings on how we as a people wish to rise above this, and more on how to keep yourself strong in the face of such overwhelming adversity, but I am a conqueror, a knight. I don't want to dodge, or pray for a better future, I want bash people over the head with the same club they're comin at me with. Everyone's safe right now though cause I have yet to figure it out.

What I think I have figured out: White people and others can be cooler than a fan individually. I don't even have problems with interracial coupling. White Society is vicious and ugly but has the greatest public relations campaign since Jesus no disrespect. Non-whites are treated badly obviously and consistently and it's repeatedly explained away as isolated incidents. Just how many isolated incidents equal a problem? Is it like tootsie roll center licks? Does anyone even really care? White society is tired of hearing about it but don't want to take any action. We are tired of being kicked in the head but don't know what to do to stop it. Conundrum let's call it that. I'll eventually crack the code.

Here's a small list of people whom I believe have cracked the code either by luck of the draw or through skill of their minds most are in some type of entertainment medium. If this is the key I'm doomed.

People today that have risen above:

Jay-Z(Have to admit didn't like this guy when he first came out but he has earned my respect.)
Dame Dash(didn't even know about him but I think that may be the way he likes it, also has earned respect)
Russel Simmons(Can't even fathom what goes on in ole boys mind definitely keeps sh* to himself didn't give him respect until Def Comedy Jam but he was makin moves way before then)
Tavis Smiley(T-Dog, this dude is my man, intelligent, dangerous and likeable this dude is the Black Intellectual James Bond)
Ice-Cube(Every-body knows what's up he handles his business, messin with is money is like playin with his emotions)
Snoop(This dude has transformed himself into an Icon without someone pimpin him like Dre is pimpin Eminem)
Oprah(I'm still on the fence on this one but she appears to be havin a good time)
Denzel Washington
David Steward(Hometown hero got one of the largest computer sales businesses in the U.S.
Old-Skool List:
Cosby(Don't know what the F* he's talkin bout these days but he has made his mark)
Ray Charles(Didn't know till Jamie Fox let me know)
Frederick Douglass
Jack Johnson(By God's grace)

Ok that's it for the "Initiation" shouts out to all who read it leave any comments you want.